02.08.07
It fits around me so tight
Modern life is Sisyphean, except we all have several stones to roll up the hill, all at once, without letting them fall to the bottom. I really hate the juggling metaphor that everyone uses, because juggling is fun, and no matter how well I seem to manage my time, I still don’t like managing it. For some reason, I don’t really have a problem with it when my time is scheduled by other people. I’m not bothered that I have to be at class at a certain time, but I am bothered that I have to create some kind of study schedule in order to get the work for the class done. It doesn’t make me feel accomplished and organized when I sit down and work for a specific amount of time; it makes me feel caged in. I’ve got to shift my perception - there’s nothing wrong with getting things done, I just need to start believing again that it’s worth it.